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Hello there, if your reading this your a bit bored and have decided to search the pages of Tumblr for something interesting to read. Well I’m not particularly interesting, but I do think a lot about many things… and I have been involved in my fair share of drama.

I’ve decided that I’m going to start new with Tumblr, as I wasn’t really entirely faithfull to it, so I hope you find some of what I write interesting, or interesting enough to enjoy reading it. If you do I’ll be very happy, but if not I wont really know will I.

So, isn’t it funny how many times you need to start over, have you ever told yourself I need to more of this, or less of that? That’s what I’m doing at the moment and I’m finding it… well very difficult to say the least. My list of changes is very long but I’m going through it section by section, and I find it so difficult!

Because as anyone who has started a new will tell you, the list clashes. I want to go to the gym more and do more revision, yet I also want to stop worrying as much and do more crazy things. People can never be happy, if they have Ice cream they want chips, if they go swimming they want to be playing tennis and if they happen to be going out with a very lovely, very good looking person, then the one quality said person does not have suddenly becomes the most important thing in the world.

And have you noticed how it’s only when the pressures on, do we suddenly decide that we have to change everything. I want all the things that are bad for me and have to force myself to do the things that are good. I’ve quite smoking now for 8 weeks (yeah I know congrates to me) but when ever I’m in the pub with my mates all I can think about is having one smoke. It sucks! I shall never be completely happy.

Hopefully you reach a point in your adult life where everything is, how you’d want it to be. But I doubt it. And to be honest, most of the time, we have nothing to complain about. There’s something to think about. Intill next time… 

She rears her ugly head and snarls,

she’s hungry, she needs her fix.

Her food is those who love her,

she swallows them whole but spits them out when they fight back.

She is weak, stupid, broken and fragile,

and although it feels as if she destroys all she touches,

I want to fix her.

Those who see her can’t help but feel sorry,

Those who love her can’t help but feel sad.

To see the one they love destroy themselves this way.

I wonder if these promises she spills are lies,

if they’re pure and sweet,

or poison which she feeds me yet again.

I hope that she can be saved,

even though I know there is nothing for me to do,

except watch the woman I love slowly destroy herself and ask for help.

I hope that they can fix her,

this monster is a stranger in my eyes,

and even love cannot show her the way out of this nasty trap she has built for herself.

I AM SOOOOO DONE!!!!!!!

It’s 11:20. I’m tired but after what has been the most painfull weekend of my life, I have actually done the impossible. I am soooo releived.

Now I just have to get through the exam.

Oh next weekend will be so good, I am getting ruined. No more stupid drama coursework.

Just the exams in January…

When will it ever end?

Seriously, will someone tell me!?

SO MUCH COURSEWORK!!!!!

And the fucking SSSSSS key is being stupid and keeps not working, if I don’t press it hard it doesn’t come up. Which really sucks becaue I have to keep making sure I press it harder.

Why is it that technology really fails when you need it most. When your in need of a computer you can’t get hold of one, or when you do it’s not working propperly.

I love how easy it is to complain on here. It kind of makes you feel a bit better to have a little rant. Even when your not sure it anyone’ listening. Cheers tumblr

So I’m sooo bored and I’m tired and I’m sitting here forcing myself to do coursework.

South park the movie is on in the back ground and I’m sooo tired. I really wish I didn’t drink last night.

I would like to be seeing a certain someone right now. However, horrible horrible course work is due on monday.

It’s drama coursework.

If I don’t do it I can’t do my exam and I have soooo much to do.

I can’t wait for this stuff to be over.

Your so close to your due date for coursework, yet you try and find every excuse not to finish it.

Like going on Tumblr for example.

My last post was rather angry. I still think she take the piss. But it was rather harsh.

My last post was rather angry. I still think she take the piss. But it was rather harsh.

SHUT THE FUCK UP.

I do everything for you and you think you have the… the audacity to call me selfish.

Your almost an adult and you still come crawling into my bed at 2 in the morning when I need sleep because you want the whole world to revolve around you. Well I have news for you… IT DOESN’T.

There are other people on this planet you know 3 billion other people and guess what most of them don’t even know your name.

You always tell me to stick up for myself and I am, but when it’s against  you I’m doing something wrong.

He’s one boy. One pathetic little man child and you’ve known him for what 7 weeks and you think you can try to convince the whole world that your a poor little heart broken child and have everyone feel sorry for you!?

He was one boy and you did not know him that well and DO NOT tell me that he has left you like everyone else in your life, because yeah you’ve not had it easy but you’ve had it fucking easyier then most people. So shut up and DON’T YOU DARE CALL ME SELFISH WHEN I COOK AND CLEAN FOR YOU AND I TAKE THE FALL WHEN YOU GET IN SHIT.

I LOOK AFTER YOU AND I WASTE TIME ON YOU. GROW UP AND SHUT UP. AND STOP STEALING MY CLOTHES!